"When god became lonely
he created man,
Or was it
When man became lonely
he created god."
"We can’t hate ourselves into a version of ourselves we can love."
Of course your life didn’t turn out how you wanted. I can’t even get D&D campaigns to turn out the way I wanted, and I’m in charge of that universe, and it’s for the exact same reason: other bloody people.
But they do make it a lot more fun.